Day one was a total success!

I am STOKED about this blog, starting weight watchers and kicking things into high gear! I really think that planning to write in this is going to keep me going. I'm an all or nothing kinda gal... and thinking about blogging today has just kept me so on board and excited. Last night I was laying in bed reading Breaking Dawn (surprise! haha) and I'm in the chapter were Bella first wakes up from the burn... and I was just laughing uncontrollably I was so happy. Life is just GOOD. I am stressed out with school, and wedding stuff and everything else, but I can handle it... and it's the good stress for a change.

At some point I need to figure out how to make my blog look prettier. Something to draw you all in. Mwahahaha.

So today was great! I had my P.E. class tonight so we did a half an hour of weight/strength training and then walked two miles. I never thought I'd be too out of shape for a friggin' beginners walking class but we are really pushing it. By the end I am sweaty and my heart is racing and I know it's counting as cardio. Whether that's because I'm horribly out of shape or because we're just pushing it that hard I don't know, but I'll take it. It's definitely better than nothing.

I used to be really good about drinking water. I became addicted to it, and my natural thirst came back. I could drink my 64+ ounces a day easily. I NEEDED to. I wanted it more than diet coke. Then I slipped back into my old ways and there were some days where I didn't even take in a sip of water. So today I re-commited to my water drinking. I like water, so fortunatly I have that working on my side. It's the containers that are the problem. I have to be prepared with good water bottles so I know how many ounces I'm getting in and can really chug it down. I can't drink really cold water, and I can't drink it out of cups. But I got in enough water already today, and I'm sure I'll have more before the night is over. I even bought a propel at the grocery store tonight. It's 30 cal (or 1 point) for the entire bottle, and while I'm okay with the flavored vitamin water, I really just buy it occasionally because I love refilling the bottle. So I know I'll be good for water tomorrow cause I've got a good bottle on my side.

I did good on food too. I'm an emotional eater. I'll eat for pretty much any reason... rarely because I'm actually hungry. So this blog will really help with that, because every bite I take I will log, and it will prevent me from eating when I'm not legitimately hungry. I like the phrase "If you're not hungry enough to eat an apple, then you're not hungry." because it's just so true. On top of being an emotional eater, I'm totally a cravings person. Once I get it in my head that I "need" that food - I must have it. That's why weight watchers works so well for me, because I don't have to deprive myself of things, but I do have to decide if it's really "worth" the points.

Food today --
Woke up and had a 2 point oatmeal. Breakfast is important, and I'm rarely hungry in the morning, but I choked it down to start my day off right.
For lunch I had a grilled chicken sandwich and a small frut cup of apples/grapes/mandarin oranges and strawberries. WAY good. 6 points total there.
Dinner was more of a bust -- Ben wound up going out and I was in fend-for-yourself mode. I stopped by the grocery store on the way home from class so that I could pick up some quick things to plan ahead for tomorrow. I was hungry & cranky and grabbed a lean cusine french bread cheese pizza for 7 points. Not the best for me, but it kept me from being bad. I really was in too terrible a mood to bother cooking for myself or getting fancy.

So I have 5 points leftover. I bought a little dessert thing that's 4 points that I'll probably have while reading later tonight. I realize I'm not eating great as far as getting in fruits/veggies/dairy... but I'll just have to work up to that. For now, I'm aiming to eat within my points range, whatever foods those may be. I will get overwhelemed and frustrated if I focus on the rest right now.

If you knew the kind of crap I consumed regularly, you'd be more impressed I'm sure. Yesterday, for example, I had chinese for lunch (moo shoo chicken with some steamed white rice) and then around dinner time had some of Ben's sweet & sour chicken leftovers. Because I got my period yesterday (ugh!) I was feeling sick and sent Ben out at like 9pm for a hot fudge sundae & mcdonald's french fries. I don't think I drank any water all day. And that was pretty much the norm for me. So I'm totally capable of doing this the right way, but I'm gonna have to ease into all the healthy stuff. Bare with me. I'm gonna be patting myself on the back for staying within my points range for the first few weeks.

Oh and today was my weigh-in today. I was 151.8. The last few times I'd weighed myself I was at 148ish... so I'm thinking some of the additional 3 pounds is water weight/bloat from my period. So I'm guessing my loss at next weigh-in may be a little inflated. We shall see.

I have a couple wedding things to get off my chest as well. I'm trying to hold back so this entry isn't too long. I HAVE to edit the final guest list this week or my maid of honor and my mom are going to kill me. They need to start working on addressing wedding invites and shower invites, so it's really not fair for my procrastinating to make them rush at the end. I need to get on that. Speaking of things that need to get done, Ben & I need to register quickly. People keep asking about that and giving me a hard time, haha. It's kind of weird to be yelled at from people who want to buy you stuff.

In other wedding related news, I'm still grieving the loss of my shoes. I just don't want to move on. I'm planning on wearing fuchsia heels for the wedding. I found the PERFECT pair online, but they were hella expensive. I showed them to my mom, FMIL and FSIL and they all loved them. Foolishly, we decided to go to the store and try them on. They were even more adorable in person and so comfortable. I didn't order them at the store because they were $110 cheaper online. So a week or so later we went to order them online (despite them being ridiculously expensive, they were just that perfect) and they didn't have my size. So that's that. The best shoes I've ever seen or tried on in my entire life are just... gone. Here they are-I have narrow heels so I need something that straps around my ankle. These are just PERFECT. The color is right, they're comfortable, the big bow makes the lame ankle strap cute and fun and not lame... and they're peep toe! I ADORE these shoes. I would marry them, if I could. *sigh*

So I've been mourning them for a while now, and it's getting down to crunch time. I have to order some shoes so I can start having my alterations done. We're running out of time. I can't even look at another shoe (I just don't see their faces.) -- they are all instantly compared to the Stuart Weitzman Lover. FSIL finally found something online that is similar. They're like 1/6 of the price of THE shoe. My mom said that while they aren't as good as the other one, we don't have another option, and to just order them. I can't bring myself to do it. Here's what they look like--
Admittedly, they're very similar knock offs. It was a good find on FSIL's part, and the price is certainly better. I never thought I'd be the girl who could stomach such expensive shoes as the Lover, but they were THAT good. If you know me, you realize how HUGE it is for me to say such a thing. These knock-off shoes are the right color. But their "bow" on the ankle strap is a stupid little string that looks like it's begging to be cut off. The big jewel thing up front is a little cheap looking. They just don't hold the same level of formality and elegance as the first pair. With such bold wedding colors I'm always walking the fine line between fun/bold & just cheap/tacky. The Lover is elegant to me but still fun, the second pair I fear just look... cheap. I'm also not real wild about open toe shoes, and these definitely aren't peep toe. They could be okay, but the thing is, I wouldn't know until they were here and they were mine. They aren't sold in any stores in Georgia for me to go and try them on. Shipping is free, that's nice. *sigh* I just can't bring myself to let go of the Stuart Weitzman shoe. Somebody snap me out of it.