I need to reign in Bridezilla

I am so ready for the mood swings that accompany my period to be done. I am feeling bat shit crazy these last few days. *sigh*

Today was rockin' for food and exercise! I ate --

egg beater & toast sandwich - 2
granola bar - 2
snack mix -2
spaghetti with meat sauce & garlic toast - 10
smart ones ice cream brownie thing - 4

got in enough water

had my P.E. class. I had a test in my class before that and was having a headache from hell and seriously contemplated just bailing on PE. But I wanted to be able to report back that I got in my exercise, and I did! It was one of those pounding make-you-naseous headaches too, so I'm really proud of myself. I did 30 minutes of strength training and then speed walked a little over 2 miles. I had worn my saucony's instead of my running shoes... and they're like a size and a half too big... and that was a mistake. Have I mentioned that the speed walking isn't on a track or treadmill? It's through a field... on like gravel/dirt/mud/sand. So it takes a lot more to propel yourself further... and then today I go doing it in shoes that are slipping off. I felt like I exerted more effort than normal.

... okay now that that's out of the way -- about my bridezilla coming out today. I blame it on my period. For reals.

I called one of the Stuart Weitzman stores in ATL today. I asked if they had the Lover, and they do -- in white & red. Ugh. The white is dyeable and she said she could still order it in a 7.5 because they don't carry half sizes in store. It's $325. They have a guy that dyes shoes for them so she said she'd call him for a quote and get back to me, which she did. It'll be $45 to dye the shoes. Now, if I had ordered them when I was in the other store before they could have friggin' ordered them in fuchsia... so my 'price shopping' is making this MORE AND MORE expensive. UGH!

So I'm still trying to figure, I can order them from zappos in black for $198. Could I have them bleached/stripped and THEN dye them fuchsia? That would still be cheaper. But I need to find a contact for someone who dyes shoes. What the hell would that be under in the phone book? *bangs head against wall*

So my mom calls in the height of my irritablity this evening (another long story) to tell me that the flower girl dress is in. GREAT! I didn't know she had ordered one. I had showed her several that I like... all with big fuchsia bows (that actually match my shoes!) and she didn't get one of those. BUT she did go to Michael's and bought a fuchsia sash. So, we'll see how that looks. Here's what I was wanting something similar to - (which I found on ebay for $40)



ANYWAY, so my mom's on the phone & I tell her about the shoes. She handed her credit card over when I could order them for $225 (they weren't in my size) so I was really hoping for some kind of deal here. Some kind of... I'll pay the $225 I said I would before but you get the rest, or just a "clearly there are no other shoes with faces and you NEED these so I'll buy them" kind of deal. haha. I tell her what happened on the phone and there's just silence. So I keep talking...I explain that it's like, these shoes or I go barefoot. I'm literally on the verge of throwing a tantrum with my feet kicking on the floor like a big two year old... it's ridiculous. Wanting such expensive shoes is so out of character for me and now this?! What has happened to me!? Then she's like "yeah, cause barefoot will just look great" and I say nothing... she says nothing... and I'm just like "OKAY BYE." and get off the phone. Ugh, I am so moody -- I hate this! So then she calls back a few minutes later and is like "I'll pay half. Order them." and I am like "okay bye." haha. I'm still not happy. WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME!? So Ben comes home and I start to go into it... and he has no idea what I'm talking about. Somehow, in the wonderful world of Groom-Land, he's missed out on the last two months of my relationship with these shoes. I'm a little hurt, to be honest. haha. I show him the shoes (and the knock offs posted in the previous blog) and he says we should get the knock offs & if I don't like them then order the good ones. He says we can sell them on ebay later. I don't want the knock-offs AND I don't want to sell the Lovers back online afterwards. *stamps feet* haha. Nothing could shake that mood I was in.

So tomorrow I think I will file my taxes and then probably buy the shoes and then pay to have them dyed. I think. I know as soon as I do there will be some glorious other option to get them cheaper. Stuart Weitzman keeps telling me I have 30 days to bring them back... but I guess not after they're dyed. Eh, what can you do.

I now look forward to being married for a new reason -- because I can rid myself of Bridezilla. I seriously cannot believe I MUST HAVE such expensive shoes. $185 for shoes is insane... and that's my HALF of them. Wow. I've totally lost it.

Oh, and I'm going to repost the shoes... cause you know you wanna see em again :D